Sometimes You Don't Get Everything You Want

I almost titled this "Sometimes You Don't Get Your Happy Ending," but that wouldn't be fair.

Yesterday, I got a bit of a kick in the gut. I was scheduled for one final surgery on Dec. 21. This would allow me to get all four surgeries in one calendar year for one out-of-pocket max of about $4k. Instead, I went to my follow-up appointment and found out that my legs are still too swollen for the scheduled surgery, which was rescheduled for Jan. 25.

Next calendar year. So I'll be facing another out-of-pocket maximum for $4k or so. That's a lot of money for my family. I, quite honestly, don't know that we can swing it. Especially if I'm only going to be having one more surgery. If we're doing more than one, then I might go ahead and do it simply because the more lip fat we get out, the better I'll be in the long run.

But for one surgery?

That's an awful lot of money.

Then there's the fact that I thought I was looking at the light at the end of the tunnel. And I wasn't. I thought that in the next couple weeks, I'd be done. And I won't.

I'm dealing with so many different emotions right now as well as some major decisions. I'm also struggling with serious body-frustrations right now. I'm not sure what the future holds for me.

At the end of the day, I have had three more surgeries than I ever thought I'd have, so I am getting my happy ending one way or another. But sometimes, you really don't get everything you want. I might just have to be okay with that.